Hi, My Name is Nikki and I'm a (Twilight) Addict - Part 2

This is part 2 of my extremely long "I'm addicted to Twilight" post (and there's some more pretty pictures):

Here's the most interesting part of my incredibly long 'I'm an Addict' story: I didn't really care for the movie. I wanted to like it. I really did, but that didn't happen. I laughed when it was supposed to be serious and I thought the acting was sub-par. The constant screaming every time RPattz came onscreen got me so angry and I could barely stand the movie. One scene I really enjoyed was the baseball scene...and I think a lot of that had to do with Kellan Lutz and Robert Pattinson's cute onscreen bromance. I left the theater thinking maybe I didn't like it because of the screaming girls. So I saw it again. And again, I didn't really like it too much. It wasn't what I had pictured while reading it at all. This newfound dislike for my obsession made me reread the books. I had hated Breaking Dawn from the first read, but I reread all of them anyway.

After this epic obsession reread, I realized that the Twilight Series isn't even what I would consider to be great writing. The books are easy to read and easy to get hooked on, but they aren't on the same level (in my opinion) as something like Harry Potter. I still enjoy them though. It's easy to get lost in the world of Twilight and I think that's one of the things that really drew me in. Aside from the fact that I do enjoy the books, I don't know why I'm obsessed it. I buy some of the magazines, I own the movie (which I've watched maybe twice), I have the soundtrack, there are posters hanging on my wall, I have the trading cards, and I follow what the actors are doing. I'm obsessed and I don't know why.

In June, I was in NYC for my birthday and I made an unplanned visit to the set of Remember Me, Robert Pattinson's new movie. I stayed for about 4 hours just watching them film a scene. Craziness, right? Just this past week I drove an hour away in hopes of seeing Jackson Rathbone filming a movie in Wayland, MA. I signed up to be an extra for the second to last day of filming, got a call saying I lived too far away and wouldn't be able to make it in time, and I was angry. I really wanted to meet Jackson. But I didn't.

Summit Entertainment and Hot Topic announced that they are doing another mall tour. And I plan on going. Again. Even though this one is sure to be insanity (not that the other one wasn't, but this one will probably be worse). I plan on waiting in line for however long it takes to meet whoever comes to my area. Not only that, but next summer there is going to be a Twilight Convention in Boston and I have already planned on going. It's an obsession and I can't seem to shake it.

I've gotten to the point where I don't even want to like Twilight, but I'm obsessed with it all the same. The insanity that surrounds it has made me almost ashamed to be a Twilight fan because of the negativity that comes with the title. Twilight fans are described as being crazy and willing to do insane things for the series and I don't want to be bulked into that category; Even though all of the aforementioned seems to put me right there.The last thing I want is to be featured in some 'crazy Twilight fans' picture or video. I don't want to be considered crazy and obsessed...just devoted.

So if you have been able to bear through my insanely long post, why has Twilight taken over the planet? What is it about the books and movies that has people (me included) so hooked? And, if there's a way, how do I become unobsessed?

Thank you for reading and once again, my name is Nikki and I'm an addict.

P.S. I still love Twilight!!!